Based on my history, you had to know that this story was coming.
Last week was the sixth week of my participation in the MKMMA course to a better me.
If you have been following my story you know that I have a habit of starting one of these things, losing interest or finding it too difficult or having it cut into my precious personal time and quitting to begin the search for the next “ready to eat, in the box microwavable” personal development program. You know, the one where you “just add water and microwave on high for 3 minutes.”
Such was the case this past week. The leaders have added activities and responsibilities every week to the point that it feels that we have a second job.
I won’t bore you with the details but the personal development part of my day (the second job) looks like this.
5 -6 am read materials from course and sit and meditate.
6:15 am exercise
7:30 am in shower, get ready, go to work
Monday dawned as usual … I am supposed to be up at 5 am to start my personal development exercises. ( takes about an hour to complete) The problem? I didn’t get up until 6 am.
You no doubt see the problem right?
So I justified to myself that I would catch up as the day progressed. ( that’s what everybody does right?)
My schedule dictates that I work on my personal development while driving to work. The activities are easy… so easy a 4th grader can do it! If you can remember 4 colors and 4 shapes….. you can do it.
Well today I was mad at myself for over sleeping and my non-performance and berated myself almost the entire way before I realized that I had forgotten to do my colors and shapes. Oh well I am at work now, ” I’ll catch up later.” ( I’m starting to see a pattern… are you>)
My next scheduled personal activities happen on lunch my lunch break. More reading more affirmations lets call it another 30 minutes.
My job required me to work through my lunch period… so I didn’t do my personal work. I rationalized that I would catch up later in the day. (sound familiar?)
The rest of my work day was uneventful and at around 5:30 I headed home.
Now remember, I am supposed to utilize travel time to advance my skills.
What do you think I did?
That’s right, I turned on the car radio and listened to two guys talk about how pitiful the Dallas Cowboys are….. as if I didn’t know already.
My rationale for not doing my work while driving was very simple. I told my self, ” heck you’ve already wasted today… you can start fresh tomorrow.
Needless to say, I did not do my night work either… unless you call watching Monday Night Football work.
Monday became Tuesday, Tuesday birthed Wednesday which led to Thursday and I had not done a stitch of the work that I was supposed to do…
I saw the handwriting on the wall…. too much trouble, takes too much time, too hard…… I was in quit mode again
Before bed on Thursday night I checked my email and saw that I had a message from Mark Januszewski who is the head honcho of the school thanking me for attending his seminar class. ( head honcho working… me watching Thursday Night Football. guess that’s why he lives in Hawaii”
I opened the message and to my surprise found this blog page. You need to read it and can do so by clicking on the picture.
or See The Blog Page Here
How did he know exactly what I was going through?
How did he know that I needed that message that very day?
Oh that’s right…. he has lived it too!
I sat down at my desk that very moment and recommitted to myself and this journey.
I am half way through week seven and feeling good about my decision.
Thank you divine intervention and thank you Mark J.